Berkabung + Kangen: Irrasional Desire

I have been blind, unwilling to see
The true love you're giving.
I have ignored every blessing.
I'm on my knees confessing


That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.


I have been wrong about you.
Thought I was strong without you.
For so long nothing could move me.
For so long nothing could change me.
Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am captured by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.


[bridge:]
You are the air that I breath.
You're the ground beneath my feet.
When did I stop believing?


Cause I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.
Hear my confession


My confession-nya Josh Groban masih mengalun merdu. Anganku terbang ke awang-awang tak tentu kapan menghinggap di kesadaran. Situasi berkabung masih menyelimuti. Malam itu kutelpon anak istriku. Di kejauhan, suara anakku memanggil: "bapaaaaaakkk... bapaaaaaakkkk..." ......

Aku tak sadar, penglihatanku agak kabur, sesuatu telah menjadikannya terhalang, berat dada ini memompa aliran nafas untuk menjawabnya. Anganku tertuju ke bayi malang tergolek tak berdaya di TV, petang itu. Ah.... Aku tak bisa menggambarkannya...

Dari jauh, istriku berkata: "Bang! Zakka kangen berat tuh! tiap hari ngeliatin fotomu di hp, trus diciumin.." Aku tertawa hampa.. Aku lebih banyak diam.

Panggilan itu kuakhiri, aku termenung diam, lambat laun sesak dada ini tak bisa kutahan... dan pecah dalam sedu sedan...

Maafkan bapakmu anakku.. maafkan abangmu, istriku! Belum bisa menjemput kalian!
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